Don't look back, Sodom is in flames, fire of judgment falling from heaven, it's gone. If you look back you will turn into a spiritual pillar of salt, ineffective, frozen, worthless. Look forward to what is next, that's all there is. You can't go back to "Normal". Normal is gone forever. Look to the future, on the other side of that hill is a future you can't see, but it is filled with opprotunity that will be revealed to you by the Father as you need to know.Philippians 3:
12 Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. 13 Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.
YOUR CALLING IS CALLING!